Student: Sir, I am engaged. I'm getting married soon
Me: Congratulation! Where is my card Mr.Engineer?
Student: Its complicated Sir. Sir, I need your help
Me: Sure. What's up?
Student: My ex-girlfriend said that she still love me and she regret leaving me back then.
Me: Why did she left?
Student: She said that I was an immature and childish playboy
Me: Point noted..
Student: I actually spent one year trying to win her heart back but she always decline. I wrote a love letter to her everyday for the whole one year.
Me: Wow! That is commitment
Student: when I tell her I love her during those 365 days, I don't say it out of habit or to make conversation. I was trying to remind her that she is the best thing that ever happened to me. She rejected me for 365 times! Now that I'm about to marry someone else, suddenly she said that she want me back
Me: What about you? What do you want? Who do you want?
Student: ... I used to think that she is the one. I wonder if she knew how many times I thought about her, how many nights I stayed awake missing her badly, how many times I've sat there at the corner of my bed and cried thinking about her. I wonder if she knew how much she hurt me..
Me: Do you still love her?
Student: I will always love her
Me: Do you love your fiancé?
Student: I do. I really do. She is the sweetest and most humble girl I've ever seen. To see her is to love her..
Me: You need to choose.
Student: How? I deeply love both..
Me: Choose the second one. If you really love the first one, you wouldn't fall for the second
Student: It's not like I leave the first one. She was the one who rejected me
Me: no matter who you choose, someone will still get hurt.. But you need to choose. Have you prayed to God asking for guidance?
Student: I did. I keep thinking about the my ex-girlfriend. I don't know why
Me: I guess if you write 365 love letters, the feeling is strong.
Student: So who should I choose?
Me: I don't know
Student: what do you mean?
Me: I don't know.
Student: but you're supposed to know. You always know what to do
Me: I'm just a man. I cannot solve everything. I'm sorry
Student: ....
Me: ....
Student: Thanks anyway Sir
(5 minutes after student left)
Me: The pain of being rejected is temporary. The deepest pain is the realization that the one that you love the very most, the one that you don't want to live without, has been always been the one that you once rejected and after waiting shamelessly for a while, decided to let you go.. The deepest pain is not to die. The deepest pain is to live, to fall madly for the one who did try to stay. I don't want to be reason for her sadness so I don't know what to say..
